I know I said I wouldn’t talk about bummer work stuff, sorry. However, I need a plan.
2013 will, I hope, be the beginning of a new career for me. I’m tired of a job that doesn’t fulfill me. I’m tired of the uncertainty, and waiting around to see if I’ll be laid off.
Everyone there is waiting to see if they’ll be laid off. There’s this cloud of misery floating over the place. It’s not a pleasant working environment.
I’ve worked on a list of pros and cons. On paper (figuratively) they come out even, but in my brain, and in my heart, finding a new job is the thing to do.
Having a job I like.
A new experience to get my brain working again.
New people, hopefully people who are not unhappy all the time.
I have time to search, so I won’t be as bad off as some people who have totally lost their jobs and must find something. I probably won’t be laid off within the next few months. I might even have as much as two years left. Optimistic, yes, but sort of possible.
I could find a job back home. My parents are getting up there, and while they’re in no danger of departing this earth soon, they will need help with some things here and there.
I’ve put in a lot of time at this place. 13 years.
I feel like I’m too old to be switching careers midstream. 43 years. But I’ll only be getting older if I wait to be laid off.
Things have been stagnant. I feel my brain deteriorating daily.
Leaving on my own accord will mean I don’t get the severance pay that I’d be getting if I wait to be laid off.
Job hunting will be difficult. Not only due to the economy, but my technical experience is extremely specialized. Not only that, it’s specialized in a dying industry.
I HATE CHANGE!!
See, my list is fairly even. I have to admit, though, if there were no layoffs on the horizon, I wouldn’t even be considering leaving. I’d stay, and be discontented, and deal with the same annoying and ungrateful people every day for the rest of my life, and then finally retire, and probably not have enough money to live decently and end up eating cat food.
GAH! I’m thinking too much, aren’t I?
Well, here goes nothing. I’ve got to cowgirl up, put on my big girl panties, whatever.
Happy New Year to you all, and I hope you achieve everything you want to achieve in the coming year.
Wish me luck.